It's fair to say that while I was undergoing medical treatments, there were times in which I was less than positive. I felt that I should have been working and the Lord should have let me work but there was much more for me to learn. One of those important lessons was to be grateful for what I do have! In the oft quoted 1992 General Conference talk "An Attitude of Gratitude" President Thomas S. Monson said,
"We can lift ourselves, and others as well, when we refuse to remain in the realm of negative thought and cultivate within our hearts an attitude of gratitude."That quote became so real to me as I sat in the realm of negative thought on my mission.
I decided I would start counting my ever so abundant blessings. To make it even more real and cause myself to consciously acknowledge them, I started "Elder Millett's Gratitude Journal" to record them in. I made sure that I didn't go to bed without writing at least 10 things in there. They including such things as, "I'm grateful for an understanding companion" or "I'm grateful that I was able to teach a lesson today" or "I'm grateful for the member that brought us food today". As I thought of each thing that God blessed me with that day, I realized how they truly were blessings and even miracles literally handed to us.
I was never perfect at it and still struggle with it from time to time. Especially now as a regular member, I forget to acknowledge everything that God gives me. Such things as, "I'm grateful that I'm able to attend BYU" or "I'm grateful for loving and caring parents" or "I'm grateful for amazing roommates" can be easily forgotten, but are nonetheless gifts from God. I know that as we do as President Monson says and acknowledge our blessings, we really will lift ourselves and in turn lift others, just as the Savior is always there to lift us up in our hard times. While sick, he never left me alone. He never leaves us and never gives up on us.